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Notice: Undefined index: index in /www/saboteurweb.com/content/words.php on line 32 time to vent* I guess my tolerance for the bullshit going on in the world has lowered recently. Many years back when I was searching for validation for my sexual orientation I got interested in gay rights and the politics surrounding gay marriage, as well as doing all sorts of ground-level research on attitudes towards homosexuality. I was lucky to be smart enough to start with the premise that I'm a good person and that love is a good thing - had my faith in those things been less than solid, I might have been convinced to change my views. Like any teen facing sexuality issues, particularly gay ones, my eyes and ears had become highly attuned to gay notions and sideplots in media and culture - the news, magazines, television, movies, music, and not least the sex education in the different schools I was in... And finally, the internet, which gave me the most to work with. Websites devoted to current gay-issue politics, the history of pride, community websites and publications, not to mentions novels and short stories of both factual and fictive origins... And all this constantly faced off with loud (but fringe) groups of religious zealots, different kinds of psychiatric research, news on anti-gay hate crime, and direct opinions of many different demographics on many different discussion groups - both anti-gay and pro-gay. So what do you think, how did that go? Yes, it was a fucking shit-tempest. The stuff I had to face had me crying, feeling lonely, wallowing in self-defeat, furiously angry - and at times happy, reassured, confident and optimistic. But mostly depressed and angry, with nobody to support me in the turmoil of emotions that followed from this research. Some of the most prominent feelings generated by these various conflicting and mostly highly negative sources of (mis)information were those of inadequacy, being worthless, disregarded as a human being and without any value to my life - and that's putting it nicely. Reading various forums had me thinking, "How can these people say such things about ME? Have they no consideration for my intrinsic human value? Can it be true that nothing else I do in life will have no bearing on these people's opinion on me as long as I'm gay?" From discovering how narrow-minded and downright violent the opinions of so many people seemed to be stemmed great frustration and anger. I set out to find information to counter the false beliefs of these hate-preachers. Being smart about the internet and a media-literate youth in general, I believed almost nothing of what I read on pages like the infamous "god hates fags" site of the Westboro Baptist Church of Topeka, Kansas. It was ridiculous from the outset! But that did not stop me from feeling bad about it: The fact that such a website existed meant that somebody DID believe in it. I had the good mind to explore and ease my pain by seeking out alternatives ("god loves fags"), but I knew many others might not. So from what started out as research to help me grow up to become a sane and responsible gay man grew a desire to go all out on a crusade against the crusaders. I did not become an activist because I was initially too afraid to come out of the closet, but I did my part in my own community (school and friends), and occasionally tried to bring a voice of reason into some discussion groups online (which was difficult because I was a zealot myself!). I did what I could primarily to preserve my own sanity, and secondarily to bring some basic compassion and understanding into the political discussions that seemed so devoid of it. I was never and never will be a front-and-center activist and spokesman, so I had to pick my fights on a smaller scale. My goal was to hopefully inspire some of the people I've met in my short life to think twice before bashing gays, and to come out of the closet myself. But eventually I just got tired of it all. In a few years of watching absolutely nothing change in the arguments, my desire to fight withered away. There are still many things to fight for even here in the relatively liberal Finland, but I've seen the argument change from civil unions to adoption to media views to stereotypes to marriage to discrimination in the workplace and occasionally back to civil unions and blah blah and so forth... With the rhetoric used being the exact same in each and every argument, be it in the parliament or on the internet forums. Eventually I stopped reading those forums, since all they did to me was make me feel bad and sad. If the boards I frequented had any political categories, I just stopped reading them and focused on the other categories. Because quite frankly, a sane person does not continuously and voluntarily subject himself to emotional agony, which is the only thing I get from reading discussions about "gay issues" where anti-gays step in. Which brings us to today, and the reason I'm ranting. When I got familiarized with the Time Magazine 10/10/2005 issue and its cover story, all these emotions sprung back. I stepped into a landmine of bullshit once again, and I want out. The argument? Gay repression like "Love Won Out" catching on in America - with young gays being willing participants. I will quote the writer on feedback of the column: (Quote) Some teenagers—a minority, I think, but some—are confused about their sexuality. [...] The right in general, and programs designed to change homosexuality in particular, have focused unprecedented resources on these uncertain kids since 2000. [...] Focus on the Family is hosting events for hundreds of gay and questioning teenagers and their parents called "Love Won Out." These Love Won Out conferences are designed to reinforce the negative stereotypes that the kids have about gay culture and also to convince these kids that they don't have to claim a gay identity—that they can "walk with Christ" instead. (End quote) The writer was responsible enough to make it explicitly clear that psychiatric professionals "agree that trying to reject one's homosexual impulses will usually be fruitless and depressing—and can lead to suicide". Again, I'm not angry about the article itself - the writer is reporting, and it's a good thing he is. But here's the problem... Very few gays are actually into the "scene". The stereotypes that people have about the "gay culture" as it was in the past was summed in a passing sentence as "being leftist, or all about partying, or all about Cher". The new gay youth has no connection to it, but the stereotypes live on. The religious right is drawing on this aversion to gay clichés to willingly recruit gays into their brainwashing operations. They saw how society has changed and realized that "god hates fags" isn't going to cut it. So they softened their rhetoric, went all into "love the sinner, hate the sin"-mode - and further, saying that "you don't have to be GAY just because you ARE gay", if that makes any kind of sense to you. If you read one paragraph on the Love Won Out website, you'll understand. It's still the same non-scientific brainwashing that aims to steer the public opinion into the direction that being gay is -- and I quote their website: "preventable and treatable". But I just can't keep fighting. I read one seemingly harmless Time article and got sucked into this pit once again, even though it wasn't my intention. I thought the article would be harmless. In a way it was - it was about how the new gay youth just wants to live a normal life and be done with campaigning for gay rights - but the report on Exodus and Focus On Family crossed the pain threshold for me and I was compelled to... rant. In a big way, too. So what's my point, exactly? "Love Won Out" is still gay-bashing propaganda, it's just smoother around the edges than "god hates fags". Even if you think that being an activist is not for you and you agree that being gay is not something that should define your life - hell, 99% gays will agree on both points - you should never stop thinking critically about what kind of organizations and governments you are supporting by your actions. Do not stand with the gay-bashing crowd just because you agree with their views on capital income taxes. Read between the lines and vote for the right people when you have a chance to cast a vote. To summarize, I will present an inspirational quote from a Zach Vernon at blogcritics.org: (Quote) I'm not an activist, per say. I feel it is necessary to at least inform those people of my generation, straight, gay, bi, curious, what-have-you of the things that are happening among those of the older generations. I also feel it is important for them to have an opinion about such actions. So, while I absolutely agree that kids my age and lower just want to be normal, the activists that are fighting so hard are just trying to make it to where, when us "children" are old enough to get married, have children/adopt, and a variety of other things, we HAVE that option. At this very moment, my state (Texas) is proposing an amendment to our state constitution not only making sure that gay marriages/civil-unions are illegal, but that any legal rights that a gay couple could possibly share will be withheld. Those activists are fighting against this amendment so that when I am ready, I can marry the man of my choosing. That I can share in the benefits of hospital visitation rights, right to an attorney, right to custody of the child we share... Are they pressuring the younger generation a little too much? Possibly. In fact, almost assuredly. Does the younger generation need a good, firm kick in the butt to get into some sort of action instead of just letting themselves be discriminated? You bet your assets. (End quote) Now I may be a shitty writer, but thank goodness Zach Vernon knows how to make a point. So think about that. |
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